So far....

So far the new year hasn't worked out as well as I'd been hoping.  As far as school goes, I feel like I'm doing well.  I'm keeping up with all my work, and although it's overwhelming on a daily basis, I do not feel that I am behind at all.  That's the most positive area of my life.  And I guess if I can keep it up, that will end up being the most rewarding area of my life.  But in the words of the immortal Marilyn Monroe, "A career is a wonderful thing, but you can't snuggle up to it on a cold night."


I'm lonely.


Don't get me wrong.  I have a lot of wonderful people in my life.  This semester, I've made it a point to be more social and to make more time to get to know people, and I truly feel that I've made more connections than ever before in my life.  I love my friends, and I feel that they genuinely care about me as well.  I'm very thankful to have been blessed to know them.  But at the same time, I'm lonely.


I'm having a hard time making sense of my past relationships and why I find myself, at 27, all alone.  I have no special someone to come home to at night, and I'm sad about that.  Why is it that I can feel successful in so many other areas of my life, but the loneliness in that regard makes me feel like I've somehow failed?  I guess I just don't understand why.


And maybe I'm not meant to understand it.  Maybe it's something I have to accept, but sometimes I feel afraid that there's just no one out there for me.  And that I'll always be lonely.  And that's sad to me because I really do have so much love to give.

A very good year

I'll be honest.  2011 sucked.  And now with 2012 barely begun and my second semester of law school already going strong, I am cautiously optimistic that this is going to be a very good year.


I've had two days of class so far, and with tomorrow being the third I will have one class period of each subject.  So far, I'm loving it.  Last semester I had contracts, property (gag!! ....except for the hot teacher....), torts, and legal writing & research.  This semester I'm taking civil procedure, constitutional law, legal writing & research II, criminal law, and criminal procedure.  I've know for quite some time that I would like to pursue a career as a prosecutor, and the limited exposure I've had thus far to criminal law and procedure has only solidified that goal.  I genuinely find it so fascinating, and I am so excited for what the rest of the semester is going to be like.  So here's to 2012, however it may turn out! :)